I have been wanting to update you all on everything that God has been doing the last 3 months I have been Home in Good ole Tennessee. Finally I have stopped procrastinating long enough to sit and type some of it out.
I decided to create this new blog specifically for this season, because although it is not the easiest season I have been in it is a crucial one.
Attempting to reflect back on the last year of my life is a lot harder than you might think. Considering everything I went through, good and bad. Living life in a community while traveling with the intent to carry His Glory wherever you go.... Easier said than done. But God knew exactly what He was doing even when we all thought it was insane. I would not ever take back a single thing that happened in the past year. My character and integrity were tested more so than they ever had been before. I was challenged to become a better version of my self everyday! I would say it was successful. When you are submerged into situations like the one I was you have no idea what will happen and all you have is God to fall back on. You have no choice but to trust Him and rest in Him knowing that you can trust Him. He is an amazing God and the desire of my Heart is to praise Him and bring Glory to His name with everything in me!
I made more of the toughest decisions in those 12 months than I have probably ever made, but it was only by the grace of God that I was able to make them at all.
God has been doing a lot..... to say the least. He has restored a lot of faith in me for my hometown. So many times in the past I would come back to America even in my home town and just feel really let down by the lack of growth in the people around me, but God has been showing me that, that is where I come in. By telling the story God has honored me with I am able to stir up that hunger in the people around me and see them really go after God and intimacy with Him. Which is pretty cool and I feel so honored that God would use me for that task. Or even just sitting with people and loving them where they are at without judgment, but being like Jesus in the sense that I can take people where they are at! However at the same time I get the opportunity to learn from those same people in what God is doing in their lives. Community.
I started working about a week after being back in the states at a sports complex cleaning, setting up and tarring down for tournaments of all sorts, as well as anything else I was asked to do. I got the job without even talking to God about it almost without even thinking about it. As if that was a muscles working out of memory rather than thought. About 3 weeks into the job I knew I had to quit. God kept telling me my time home was intended to be for Rest.... However, my mind set has always been "when in America I work," but that is not what God had intended for this season of being home. with a major blow to my pride and a large step of faith I knew I had to quit. 2 months of working I finally put in my 2 weeks and left..... Now let me clarify I needed to quit not because I was to do nothing, but I also had 2 other jobs and a third job for past me would be normal, but not what was to be my future. So with my nanny Job and my one day a week house cleaning job I set out to seek more rest when I hit a wall.... I have no clue what Rest in America looks like... It goes completely against how most Americans live there life. Filling every waking moment with things to distract themselves from ordinary life... Out of the country living the life of a missionary makes it almost easier to rest in God because really He is the only stability you can get. very different from here. Where I can find stability in things or at least things with a very convincing illusion of stability. But that is not how I or anyone else for that matter, is called to live life.
My conclusion would be rest is hard. Especially for a "doer" like me, but the days I do sit and wait in Him and on Him I am living the adventure filled life I have always dreamed. Because only with God I can go and do anything!
That is all for now. Next time I will write more than my thoughts and more about what I feel God has for me next!
Love and Blessings!
Rachael Michelle
P.S. I know this wasn't very long, but don't worry more is coming.
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